I am not an easy person to love. Some days I will whisper how beautiful you are while planting gentle kisses all over your body. You will giggle and try to fight me off and in that moment my heart will have never felt so light.
But other days when my mind is a storm cloud threatening to explode, I will be a bundle of emotions that I cannot quite keep contained. I will be cold, distant, and you will look at me like I am not the same person you fell in love with.
I am a broken light switch. My moods flicker without anyone flipping me on and off. I wake up each morning and wonder which me you will encounter that day. I always hope it is the one who makes you want to stick around.
I am not easy to love. But what I need you to understand is that whether there is a war raging inside of my mind or I am the kind person that you adore, I will always love you.
I will love you in the morning. I will love you when you cry. I will love you when I am angry. I will love you when you’re being stubborn. I will love you when I don’t even love myself. I will love you.
I know that there will be days when you want to give up on me but I am asking you, please don’t. You see, you are the only one who has been able to settle the storm inside of me before I even realize it is surfacing.
I am not easy to love but I promise that I will always put up a fight. And I will love you no matter which me my light switch flips on that day.'
Sophie: Sophie wants some tea!! With milk! And honey!
Me: okay I’ll make you some
Sophie: Mama will not make it in the microwave.
Me: No I won’t, I will make it in the tea kettle!
Sophie: Sometimes mama puts her tea in the microwave! Sometimes she puts it in the tea kettle!
Me: that’s right! Sometimes it gets cold and I warm it up in the microwave. You are such a smart girl.
Sophie: Sophie is not a smart girl. I am a little pig eatin some slop.
And then she proceeded to eat her oatmeal, almond milk, chick pea mixture and make pig noises at me